Shit and Gold

Obviously I’m not doing a great job of posting on here regularly, and I think I’ve figured out why.  I’m trying to make this blog look like a showcase of “good art”, of finished writing and pieces I feel proud of and want to show off.  But that is not the point of this blog.

The point of this blog is to show my creative process as it really is.  To share the pathetic, endless angst involved in the creative process.  The self loathing, the fear, the anxiety, and the endless mounds of shit that get produced in order to get to a tiny nugget of gold.

I once read a quote from a writer who said that, in the beginning, what you write is 99% shit and 1% gold.  If you keep at it, over time, that ratio starts to flip.  Eventually, if you write for years and years and get really really good, you might get to a place of 50% shit and 50% gold.  But you will always have to produce that shit to find the gold.

If I try and preserve my posting space for the gold (and, let’s be honest, it’s mostly copper and bronze), I’ll almost never post on here.  This blog is intended to be about the shit.  TRUTH: I am sitting in my bath robe, frizzy hair, my entire life surrounded by half finished projects.  To my right is a graphic novel by a woman younger than me, and it’s inspiring because I know I could write a better one.  But… she wrote it and I didn’t.  To my left is several pages of printed notes for a copywriting job that I could probably whip out in 5 hours, but I have been dragging my feet on it for a couple weeks because I don’t want to feel bored.  And it’s pretty boring to write copy.  But it’s how I need to make my money right now so I can continue to make some shit, and hopefully a little gold here and there.

So, hey y’all, get ready for some shit.


3 thoughts on “Shit and Gold

  1. j. michael combs (miguel peines -- el despeinado) January 13, 2015 / 7:26 pm

    my first sponsor in AA told me, “going to an AA meeting is like filling your gold pan up with gravel: you’ll have to wash out the nuggets for yourself.” so, i find the gravel and nuggets language more helpful than the shit & gold. shit is lower than gravel. ??

  2. mstrongheart January 13, 2015 / 7:34 pm

    Hmmm, that’s a good one. I guess, creatively speaking, even gravel is more valuable than shit. If the only pressure you put on yourself is to produce total shit, then you’re more likely to make the 80-95% of it needed to get to the gold?

  3. J m combs May 19, 2017 / 11:53 pm

    Yes i guess ~ but we get nuggets from washing gravel in real world placer mining. So, having panned for gold myself, i find this metaphor more useful.
    There are places where houses are plastered using a manure – clay mix. And I’ve read about buildings that formerly housed goldsmithing works being burned so that the ashes could then be washed in a gold pan, the resultant salvaged gold dust being apparently valued more highly than the building that required burning. …
    But that’s the only real world situation I can imagine where shit could yield gold… unless baby’s diaper yielded mommy’s ring?

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